If anyone has been following me on twitter or live Journal you will probably know that the last few days have been pretty hard for me. My Poppy had a fall and was taken into Hospital. The Hospital kept doing everything wrong and sent him home again. He is improving, but let me tell you I have been sleeping very little and had so much worry loaded on my mind I will be happy when I can settle down a bit. I have stayed with him these past several nights, because I have to make sure he is alright. I felt terribly guilty that he fell the night I was home having a break. Always the way isn’t it?
I feel strangely out of touch at the moment. Like I am forgetting everything and floating along invisibly. I know that is not true in part. I think I do need to find some way to bring happiness in after so much tragedy and stress this year. It has been another one. I guess that happens for most people and when you are caring for elderly people you have to expect it on some level. The emotional tremor is like a whip or razors.
Nanowrimo started again. I just don’t feel up to it right now. Maybe I will feel inspired again during the month, but it’s not looking too good. Another year, another fail. x|