what can be said..really?

19 years

Thank you everyone for you comments in some ways it was good to get that off my chest but in other ways didn’t help as much as I would have thought. I’m my own worst enemy as in many cases everyone is. You feed your own mind full of all the things you know that will stress you out to the max and still have you to keep thinking untill you eventually can’t see any sunshine breaking through.

And because I am prone to depression I hate myself for it because I don’t want to be clique, but i’m not I’m just me. Sometimes like everyone I will feel unloved, feel special and feel alone. We can’t always help the way we feel.

Today marks the day 6 years ago my uncle was murdered. It’s sad and just another one of those things. But I am lucky to have loving people around me and I worship you guys more then you know. I am just an emotional drifter and not as strong as I think, without my friends I would crumble and I love you.

As you can tell my last entries are becomming very emotional and on different levels, maybe it is because it’s going into Pisces very soon and the emotional games will begin or maybe there is a true reason and a lesson that must be learned.

whatever happens my hand is on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve.

Thank you, to everyone that visits the counter said 50 people for one day it must be a record!!

12 Responses

  1. Awww hunny! *big huggles* I understand how you feel, I actually felt like total bloody crap today, like everything was weighing down on me mentally. I mean everything was going wrong! And I just threw myself on my bed and laid there in the dark by myself. I suppose that is how I deal with screwed over situations. But I am glad I have you and my other friends also for support 🙂 the internet is a wonderful thing! It brought me to you 😀

  2. Aww.. I know what you’re going through, I use to feel the same way until certain people came into my life and helped me through it. If you ever want to talk, I’m here 🙂

    I’m turning 18 :D!

  3. i’m really sorry you are going through an emotional stage right now.. and well everyone goes through them .. i know i sure did worst year of my life.. it’s okay you’ll get better (:

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