Living in a Sandbox

14 years

The last few days/week I have been feeling really blah. Very tired, sleepy, sick. Basically depressed. I have been thinking and dreaming about my Nanna a lot (who passed away in May 2010). I miss her so much. 🙁 The fact I can never hug her again, and that the generations after me will never know her is such a huge shame. *sigh* I know they can know her through stories passed on, it’s just not the same as knowing someone.

I took Kitdung and Mogwai to the vet to be de-sexed. Everything went well, except for the fact that Mogwai is actually a boy not a girl ahahah. Fail. I really really thought he was a she. I’ve raised heaps of kittens over the years, but he was a sneaky little boy.

I have been slack with emails and just about everything online. It has been taking me a lot of energy to do anything which really sucks. The stupid internet connection I am using is driving me crazy. It sails a long at 11kbps (arrrrh) and likes to disconnect all the time. Grr.

I was going to get a Mac, it was kind of a spur of the moment thing because I have been wanting one for years (they are sexy). Mum and Dad talked me out of it (at least for now, har har). After thinking about it for a while, I think what I was really wanting was happiness not just a Mac. Because the idea of one opens the doors for happiness and delight. If I can find ways to bring some positives in, I might want a Mac less (or more? Bwahaha).

Hah, I brought more DVDs.

  1. Invictus
  2. Is Anybody There
  3. Gamer
  4. Two Hands
  5. The Haunting In Connecticut
  6. Seventh Moon
  7. The Final Destination
  8. Elizabeth
  9. Elizabeth The Golden Age
  10. The Thaw
  11. Blood Creek
  12. The Princess and the Frog
  13. Old Dogs
  14. The Box

I have been on a bit of a horror movie marathon lately. Sometimes watching them alone is a bad idea. 😛 Are you on 😀 If you are add me, Kya.

4 Responses

  1. I loved Princess & the Frog. Have you watched Toy Story 3? *checks checked movies* I see you have not. Me neither but I want to. :3
    *runs and give you a hug*
    I hope you’ll get better soon. *more hugs*

  2. I’m sorry you’re feeling so low 🙁 Sometimes it can be hard to get out of those types of mindsets. I hope your horror movies help out 🙂
    I especially love The Others with Nicole Kidman, it was the last horror/thriller movie that actually scared me… I love watching them alone! 🙂
    I’ve never heard of icheckmovies looking at it now.
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  3. Oh love. I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling this way! You have been through so much and it’s no wonder you are feeling the weight of it all. Sometimes you get those days when you miss someone so much, no one can talk you into feeling better. But I am always consoled by the thought that on those days, that person is sitting next to you, looking over you and smiling, wanting to be with you but knowing they are in the right place for them right now. It’s like they are spending those days with you, and their energy is pulling you down but they are also happy to be with you. I love you!

    If you need anything just let me know. I miss you. And that is a lot of shopping and movies! 😛 The best nights are having cosy movie marathons with some popcorn and summer breeze. Oh no wait… it’s cold there now, right? Oh, Australia!

    I think you should get a Mac! 😛

    Love you. x
    .-= Last Post: “If” is the middle word in life =-.

  4. I’m sorry to hear about your grandma. 🙁 Losing someone is really hard and it is sad that someone you find so amazing will never get to meet your kids and your kids, kids, etc. It really is a huge shame. I guess that’s just the way it goes though. Someday we will be that amazing person that our kids, kids wants their kids to meet and we may or may not be there to do that. If that makes sense. Anyway, I really am sorry for your loss. My grandma died when I was 2 and I only have 1 memory of her and it’s a memory when she was dying. I’m not even sure how I remember it being only 2 and all. I wish I had other memories of her, ones that weren’t as depressing. My mom has told me stories, but it’s not the same as an actual memory.

    We’ve had cats where we couldn’t tell if they were boys or girls. We’d assume they were one or the other and then they’d do something that made us think we were wrong. Ahh animals! hahah gotta love them.

    I’m a HUGE horror fan. Ever since I was a little girl like 4 and 5-years-old. I remember going to the movie rental store with my parents and the first place I would run to would be the horror section. I know most little kids run to the kids section and want to pick out an awesome disney movie or whatever, but not me. I ran straight for like Friday the 13th, which I rented a lot. I can remember my dad would get bothered because I’d rent the same move over and over. He’d try to encourage me to pick something out that I haven’t seen. haha.
    .-= Last Post: Our Youth Today =-.

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