In life, we can become complacent with the things that matter and forget to acknowledge what is important to us in the present. We may not realise that something or someone meant so much until circumstances change. I know that one day, I am going to be thinking about this time of my life, and possibly wish that I could grasp some element of it again. I’m lucky to have a wonderfully kind mother and father, find myself in a better place mentally, have great friends and have the opportunity to study and forge a path for myself. It’s not to say that some of us live in harmonious bubbles without negative influences. Bad things happen and they effect us in different ways. The point is, there might be something, however small or large, that means something to you right now. That is truly worth recognising and being thankful for.
There are many things that I am thankful for at this moment in my life and will possibly discover even more as I continue to evaluate and explore.
I am so grateful to have wonderful parents. My kind, intelligent, curious, funny and tea adoring mum. My funny, sweet, caring and fire patch obsessed dad. We are a bit quirky, we tend to do our own thing, but we understand each other and most importantly are there to support each other. We went through a lot of difficult times, when my grandparents passed and dad was diagnosed with cancer twice, when he went through treatment and had major operations. It was extremely difficult, but how lucky I am that I still have them. That they are in my life and I can talk to them and share with them.
I am grateful that I find myself in a place where I am mentally much more stable. There was a time where I did not have the ability to consider a future for myself or that I was worthy of an education or any form of positive influence. I fought very hard through depression, psychosis and trying to understand what was real in a completely distorted reality. I have a better understanding of how I work, what triggers me and how I have to manage my mental health. It’s something that will never go away and I may have episodes in the future, but maybe I can look back on this post and remind myself that at one time I was able to feel like I had control and that over time you can get back there.
I often felt very afraid, worthless, isolated, angry and confused. I couldn’t have dreamed that I would be here now, thinking about those times and saying that, right now, I am doing alright.
I am grateful that I have found the strength and determination to study at University. To learn and discover new things about an area of interest that I love (design), is such an awesome thing. Not only do I have the opportunity to study, but I am also feeling more confident in the consideration of what degree I want and my future. The reason that this is so significant to me, is that I never felt that I was good enough to study at University, I wasn’t smart enough or talented enough and would never get accepted. I am so proud of myself for taking that leap and realising that I can do it. For the first time ever I scored a 100/100 on an assessment and my GPA is a 4.0.
I am discovering so much about the industry of design and of myself as a creative individual. It has also been a great enabler in pushing me to go above and beyond.
I am grateful for the friends that I have in my life. The awesome people that have been such a great support to me and stuck by through all the noodles. The ones that I have been so blessed to watch as they grow and develop as people and have played such a big part of my life. Mum, Nicole and Claire, I can’t imagine life being the same without you, and I am so thankful for all the moments and memories that we share.
I am also grateful for the new friends, the blog friends and website buddies that have made this whole personal blog thing an interesting and enjoyable experience. Some blogs I have been visiting for over ten years and it has been so great to join along as each story unfolds.
- What are you thankful for?